What’s wrong with me? When grief affects your mind, emotions, and sense of self

Grief can make you feel lost, foggy, and unlike yourself. That doesn’t mean something’s wrong.

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Grief can be disorienting - emotionally, mentally, even physically.

You might not be crying, but something feels off. You forget things. You snap for no reason. You feel nothing - or everything. If you’ve been thinking, what’s wrong with me?, you’re not alone. Grief doesn’t always show up the way we expect, as this guide explains. Sometimes it hides in plain sight, like in brain fog, in irritability, or in flatness. This article explores how grief can affect your mind, mood, memory, and sense of self, and why none of that means you’re broken.

When grief messes with your head

Grief doesn’t just affect your heart. It affects how you think, focus, and function. You might feel foggy, forgetful, distracted, or numb. You might struggle to follow conversations, lose track of what day it is, or feel emotionally out of sync.

These symptoms are more than just “being off.” They’re signs that your nervous system is overwhelmed. When grief hits, your brain goes into survival mode. Stress hormones like cortisol rise, and your ability to concentrate or stay present often drops. Time can feel stretched or compressed, like everything’s rushing by, or standing still.

You might reread the same sentence five times. Forget why you walked into a room. Space out mid-conversation. You might find yourself scrolling on your phone, unable to remember why you picked it up in the first place. It’s not because you’re failing. It’s because your system is prioritising emotional triage over mental sharpness. This is a normal part of how grief moves through the brain and body.

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Feeling numb, irritable, guilty, or “off”

Grief doesn’t always look like sadness. You might feel irritable, restless, flat, or on edge. You might feel nothing at all. Or you might feel unexpected emotions, like guilt or even relief, that leave you second-guessing yourself.

These conflicting feelings often show up when your emotional brain is trying to make sense of something it can’t fully process. The reality of the loss hasn’t landed yet, but your body knows something important has changed. That gap can feel like emotional static, and it’s deeply unsettling.

There’s also a cultural mismatch. People may expect you to cry, withdraw, or feel devastated, and when you don’t, it can create confusion or shame. You might laugh during a eulogy. Or feel oddly calm when everyone else is falling apart. But there’s no “right” way to feel. If you’re snappy, numb, tuned out, or too exhausted to care, that’s grief, too. You’re not broken. You’re reacting in the way your system knows how.

"Grief doesn’t just affect your heart. It can rewire your whole sense of self."

“I don’t feel like myself” - identity loss in grief

Loss doesn’t just take someone from your life - it can fracture your sense of who you are. You might find yourself saying, I don’t feel like me anymore, or I don’t know who I am without them. That’s not just sadness. That’s grief reshaping your identity.

You may be grieving a person, a role, a routine, or a whole future you imagined. Maybe you were a caregiver. A partner. A best friend. A grandchild. Maybe you shared inside jokes, weekend habits, or small rituals that anchored your sense of self. Without them, it’s like walking through your life without a map.

This feeling of internal dislocation is often quiet but profound. Especially when grief coincides with life transitions like ageing, retirement, relocation, parenthood, or illness. It can leave you feeling emotionally unrecognisable to yourself.

And it’s not just internal. You might feel out of place socially, unsure how to relate to friends, colleagues, or family members who haven’t experienced what you’re going through. That mismatch can deepen the sense of disconnection, as if you’re not just grieving the person you lost, but also the version of yourself who existed before they were gone.

When grief looks like anxiety, burnout, or depression

Grief can show up looking like something else entirely. You might feel exhausted but unable to sleep. You might feel wired, restless, emotionally raw, or just flattened by everything. These symptoms can mimic anxiety, burnout, or depression, and that makes grief even harder to recognise.

Your nervous system is doing its job of managing stress and protecting you from overload. Fight, flight, or freeze responses are common in early and ongoing grief. You might be short-tempered, withdrawn, or tearful. You might have panic attacks or feel disconnected from your body. This doesn’t mean you have a disorder. It means your body and brain are adapting to intense emotional pain.

You might find yourself avoiding emails, skipping errands, or unable to reply to a text message - not because you’re lazy, but because even small tasks feel insurmountable. If that’s your experience, it doesn’t mean you’re doing something wrong. It means your internal resources are stretched thin.

How grief manifests is different for everyone. If what you’re feeling feels “wrong,” that’s often the grief itself talking. And you don’t have to navigate that confusion alone.

5 things that don’t mean you’re broken (but might mean you’re grieving)

Grief can leave you feeling like a stranger to yourself. These five experiences often come as a surprise, but they’re common signs that your system is still adjusting to loss.

1. You cry at random moments - or not at all

Tears aren’t a measure of grief. Some people cry constantly. Others don’t cry at all. Numbness is often a temporary form of emotional protection.

2. You forget things you normally wouldn’t

Grief brain is real. You might misplace things, lose your train of thought, or struggle to finish a sentence. This is your brain prioritising emotional processing over mental performance.

3. You feel guilty for how you feel - or don’t feel

You might feel guilty for feeling relieved. Or for laughing. Or for not crying enough. Grief isn’t always logical, and guilt is often part of love and loss, not a sign you’ve done something wrong.

4. You’re irritable, withdrawn, or out of sync

You might find people exhausting. Or yourself exhausting. You might snap more often or feel numb in situations that used to bring emotion. These aren’t failures. They’re reactions.

5. You think something’s wrong with you - but it’s grief

If you’ve been quietly wondering, what’s wrong with me?, this is your reminder: you’re not broken. You’re grieving. And grief needs space, not self-judgment.

Even if you don’t feel like you’re “coping,” your system is still doing its best to carry something heavy. And that deserves compassion.

If these experiences feel familiar, take heart that they’re not signs that something is wrong with you. They’re signs that something mattered deeply, and that your mind and body are still catching up with that truth.

What if you’ve been feeling this way for a while?

Grief doesn’t always follow a timeline. You might be months (or even years) beyond the initial loss and still feel like something hasn’t settled.

Maybe you’ve felt “stuck” in the same emotional loop. Maybe the fog never fully lifted. Or maybe the intensity faded, but some part of you still feels wobbly, ungrounded, or raw.

That doesn’t mean you’ve failed at grieving. It just means your system is still integrating the loss. Grief often resurfaces around anniversaries, changes, or reminders, and that doesn’t mean you’re going backwards. It just means you’re human.

Therapy can help create space to explore that long-tail grief - the part that lingers even after the world expects you to be “okay.”

You’re not broken - you’re grieving

Grief doesn’t always feel like sadness. Sometimes it feels like fog, fear, or falling apart. If you’ve been asking what’s wrong with me?, the answer might be: nothing. You’re grieving, and that process is different for everyone.

The confusion, disconnection, and emotional noise don’t mean something’s wrong with you. They mean something mattered. And if you’d like support making sense of it, here’s how grief counselling can help when emotions feel hard to name.

You don’t need to be sure what you want to say. You don’t need to have a plan. Therapy can begin with a simple truth: I don’t want to carry this on my own anymore. An experienced grief therapist will meet you exactly where you are.

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